do i sound crazy? huh? just a little? maybe? uh huh?
well good because i AM crazy because the cat-herding here at work has reached near-fever pitch (even though herding doesn't really have a pitch but whatever -- mixed metaphors? not my biggest concern right now) and i know this to be true because when i explained to my very put together manager what my situation is she just looked at me, slightly horror-stricken and offered sympathy as i detailed the hoops i'm now jumping through to make this project work.
and so i thought i'd take a break to catch my breath and share with you a thought i had this morning in the shower.
okay. here it is. all profound and shit.
i wasn't funnier before i met Ish.
i was funnier before i started this job.
yes, IIFs, it's true. it hit me like a ton of bricks.
frankly, i used to write a good portion of my blog from work. (hi Stacy!) often i'd start drafts at home and over the weekend, but i would edit and tweak my posts throughout my work days. and because my workload was rather uh, "reasonable," i didn't exactly have to decompress at night or on the weekends, and so had plenty of energy for writing stuff all the time.
but then i started up with this job and everything changed.
so if i must blame someone -- anyone -- for my stultified blogging, i think i should blame my new job. and as such, i am going to give my new job a name (how's "bob"?) and now we can all hate him together.
i mean, don't get me wrong. i don't actually hate bob. bob's a swell guy. he treats me pretty okay, you know? he keeps me fed and clothed and stocked with yarn and helps a whole lot with my rent.
but yeah. on the other hand, bob IS a bit on the demanding side. he's all "do this" and "do that" all day. and he's not exactly the kind of guy who encourages the blogging.
which is why i think we all know that bob isn't truly Mr. Right -- bob is simply Mr. Right Now.
and that's okay. we can have some great times together now. i'm sure i'll learn a lot from him and that our relationship will grow and mature over time. but of course, eventually we are going to part. and he will find himself a new girl -- younger, more eager, more capable of loving him than i ever was.
and i will find myself with a guy way more in tune with my needs.
(like, you know, the need for blogging.)
and in the meantime, i'll try and find a way to make things work with bob. more compromise, maybe. more give and take. i'll try and find a way to be there for him, but take the time i need for me.
uh, just as soon as i finish lassoing in all these damn cats.
here kitty, kitty, kitty....