It's what? Day FOUR here at Project Ass Removal* and I have gone, officially, insane.
I honestly have no idea what to do anymore.
It's not like I am diet-clueless. On-the-fucking-contrary! (Oooh, I must be feeling fiesty if I'm swearing!) I know SO MUCH STUFF -- I have read so much literature, so many plans, so many guides, so many blogs, so many websites -- that I am completely and utterly exhausted.
And you'd think, what with all this KNOWLEDGE clamoring around in my head like a mental growling tummy, I'd be able to form some sort of realistic-yet-effecitve plan of attack.
I spent all day yesterday boiling down this damn thing and registering for this damn thing and then wanting to throw myself over a bridge after discovering this damn thing.
Because in my world, burritos should not be mortal enemies and nothing makes sense anymore anyway.
Counting calories is a harrowing thing. It always seemed to me somewhat restrictive, but if you look at it plain and simple (too simple, based on everything I know and love about Atkins and South Beach), it's soooooooo discouraging. Because if you do the math, you're left with very little to eat and a need to be super patient because the weight will take a long time to come off.
Is that all there is? Could be, except I've lost weight before doing other things, too. Like...
Now, South Beach STILL seems like the most reasonable option for me, so long as I stop making all sorts of exceptions for myself.
Because, as Serre was sharing with me yesterday, when SHE went on SBD and was having trouble losing weight in the beginning, she decided to track her meal choices at Fit Day (which is awesome and free, by the way).
Which is how she discovered she was eating about 3,000 calories a day. And even though South Beach tells you not to so much worry about calories, they will take care of themselves, 3K a day seems just not okay.
But this brings me back to the main point of frustration: if you count calories AND watch good/bad carbs, then what have you left to eat?
I know it's not impossible and that I'm just feel frustrated because this is how it always goes at first, but still.
Oh AND? As I was saying above -- just as a fun aside in the OH MY FUCKING GOD NO WONDER I AM NEVER GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT category...
I decide for dinner that I am going to grab something "healthy." I head to Baja Fresh, a "healthy" place to eat. I select a burrito with chicken, because I figure, HEY, IT'S JUST CHICKEN. Each item in the burrito seems rather healthy -- grilled chicken, black beans, salsa. Yes, there is some cheese, sure, add another 150 calories, but also it will be more filling with the fat. And if I have it with guac, that's good carbs and good oils . (I don't know if this accounts for rice or what.)
Here is what I discovered.
Yes. 850 calories and 35 g of fat and 75 g of carbs and 19 WW points. NINETEEN.
For that amount, I could go to McDonald's and eat a McLean burger with medium fries and come in at 790 calories and 17 WW points. Sheesh.
Anyway, I am just not sure about anything right now, other than that I should eat less, eat better, and work out.
*I'm sure this endeavor will have many, many names.