The First Three Days

Alright. So I've been on this new weight-loss regime for three days (today will be day four).

It's a huge big giant change from what my otherwise "normal" routine is, and it's very effective. It doesn't surprise me that it's effective, though. Because that's the thing about these programs: if you do them, they work.

One of the anonymous commenters on my last post asked a very important question. I'm paraphrasing, but s/he basically was like, "Um, this is all well and good for losing weight. But what the hell are you going to do once the weight is lost?"

So I realized I should point out a few things.

1) I didn't gain this weight slowly, over time, where it just kept creeping up and I didn't notice and suddenly I'm wondering how I got to be THIS big. I have been *about* this size for over a decade.

2) When I successfully lost ~50 lbs in college, I kept most of that weight off for a few years. I wouldn't say gaining it back was a conscious decision, but I wasn't oblivious to it happening, either. (It followed meeting my first husband and the subsequent body-comfortability that comes with being in a cozy relationship.)

3) It's not that I don't know how to lose weight; it's that I just don't do what I have to do.

I don't need to learn portion control. I don't need to learn how many calories are in things. I don't need to learn what good fats are. I don't need to learn that eating less stuff more often is better than eating a couple giant meals a day. I totally know.

I just don't so much do.

I don't want weight-loss to be hard. So I constantly come up with new and better ways for me to "eat healthy" without sacrificing much. It usually works a little, slowly, but then I get frustrated. And I start on a slippery slope of "a little more of this won't ruin the week." And it wouldn't, if I didn't find a reason to say that every day.

Then there's also the occasional all-or-nothing mindset I get into, where if I eat something bad, I decide I've blown the whole day and may as well start fresh in the morning.

Ultimately, I believe I will be able to maintain my weight once I get where I'm going*. Getting there is the hard part.

Details about this diet so far can be found on my review blog, here.

*By the way? My goal is not to be "skinny" -- at least not right now. My goal is to be a happy, healthy, comfortable weight and dress size. One that lets me shop in normal (non-plus-size) clothing stores, even for bras. OH GLORY DAY.