I'll Be Seeing You
It's never intentional, but every time something major has happened with Ish, I have gotten blogger's block. I don't know what to write.
I am not comfortable writing about his life or his issues, because, well, it's his life and his issues.
But if that's the major thing going on in my life, then what do I blog about? The weather? Mayonnaise? Sometimes, I just don't have the heart. Or energy. Or emotional fortitude to tell a story about something that -- for the time being -- just doesn't matter.
May was a pretty ridiculous month. By the last week, I started to feel some sense of normalcy, even though I was thinking about bigger-picture stuff and travel and life changes and all that. And then WHAM! Just when I thought maybe I was getting a handle on things...
For a whole lot of VERY sudden-but-probably-good reasons, it looks like Ish will be moving. To LA. And if so, sooner than later (like maybe in the next few weeks).
And I have to figure out what to do next.
Again, it's not really for me to discuss, but basically Ish is going there for a cool but indefinite work opportunity. If it works out, he may be there for a long while. If it doesn't -- well, who knows.
In the meantime, I will stay in San Francisco. And we will continue to see each other. And I guess we'll figure something out, one way or another.
It's actually not all bad, it's just a lot to try and process.
More to come. Stay tuned.
I am not comfortable writing about his life or his issues, because, well, it's his life and his issues.
But if that's the major thing going on in my life, then what do I blog about? The weather? Mayonnaise? Sometimes, I just don't have the heart. Or energy. Or emotional fortitude to tell a story about something that -- for the time being -- just doesn't matter.
May was a pretty ridiculous month. By the last week, I started to feel some sense of normalcy, even though I was thinking about bigger-picture stuff and travel and life changes and all that. And then WHAM! Just when I thought maybe I was getting a handle on things...
For a whole lot of VERY sudden-but-probably-good reasons, it looks like Ish will be moving. To LA. And if so, sooner than later (like maybe in the next few weeks).
And I have to figure out what to do next.
Again, it's not really for me to discuss, but basically Ish is going there for a cool but indefinite work opportunity. If it works out, he may be there for a long while. If it doesn't -- well, who knows.
In the meantime, I will stay in San Francisco. And we will continue to see each other. And I guess we'll figure something out, one way or another.
It's actually not all bad, it's just a lot to try and process.
More to come. Stay tuned.
Right. I need MORE very sudden things to happen in your life.
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I'm sure you feel the same way.
Hugs all around.
I'm sorry, K. I hope it all gathers in to some sense of normal - a new normal, maybe, and one that works for both of you.
ReplyDeleteMuch love.
You can do this...
ReplyDeleteI have a hard time NOT writing about Wilman - but I'm apparently more self-absorbed than you, because I can almost always find something ELSE to ramble about. Hmm. Anyway...yikes. Ch-ch-ch-ch-chaaanges, huh? I hope you're okay.
ReplyDeleteI just stopped by the blog to say...I miss your writing and hope you come back soon.
ReplyDeleteI am a writer and have been thinking about the series you did on your divorce, etc. The reason it so sticks in my mind is that all of us knew where it was going-- we knew how it ended-- and yet the way it was written provided almost unbearable suspense. Everyday I tuned in thinking oh god, what next?
So now I am a hopeless addict.
Best,
B.
well, luckily, LA's really just a few hours away.
ReplyDeletebut that doesn't make it any easier.
good luck..
don't overstress it and love the one you're with...
ReplyDeleteSometimes the path to fulfillment is in the detours. You have recently blogged about feeling the need for change - maybe this is the beginning, not the end.
ReplyDeleteYeah... Kristy, when i graduated from the U, your mom gave a card with a character laying on his tummy, fingers just crossing the "finish" line... then when you opened the card the fingers were just crossing the "start" line all over again. (my mom's card opened with pomp and circumstance playing with words saying sometimes you don't know whether to laugh or cry) ... that's how it is... and it seems we have to grow from the inside out, pretty much all on our own... oh and i got a really strong deliberate sign from jane the other day. wow. everything's ok even in the chaos, and it's all good news! believe it!! :)
ReplyDelete{{{hugs}}}
ReplyDeleteIt's not very far away. You can do the long distance thing for a very long time if the relationship is solid. It's not ideal, but when you are together it's 100% fun and focused.
ReplyDeleteK,
ReplyDeleteOn a lighter note, you'll get to hang with Purl anytime you're in LA, and that is a gift in itself, I imagine.
On a not-so-light note, this timing sucks, and I'm so sorry the punches keep coming...
IngaB
I hope it all works out - and I'm sure it will. My bf moved to another country 2 years after we started dating... 2 years later, we're still together and getting married! Sometimes the distance helps...and with the two of you in different places, maybe you'll get to meet up in cool places (a good excuse to travel) :) Good luck!
ReplyDelete-jen
Dude!
ReplyDeleteWe can fly to LA together and you'll be able to meet Steven!
*tries to look at the bright side*
I had blogger's block for most of last week. It's going around. Full moon is coming, I think. Everyone I've spoken to lately has been having a hard time. This too shall pass and all that shit, you know? Hang in there. Your ability to blog will come back. And hey, if you get desperate, I'm in SF and would love to meet up with you - then you can write all about that! :)
ReplyDeleteTakin' one for the team (of IIF),
Green
am I the only one who has been scanning Last Comic Standing for Ish?
ReplyDeleteThis only makes my obsessive looking for him intensify.
I'm going with the whole ISH IS ABOUT TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS aspect to all of this!
bloggers block happens. Things come and go. Life block happens,.. things come and go,... so it goes
ReplyDeleteKiki, you guys can totally make this work. The drive isn't bad and flights are always available. LA/SF couples make it work all the time. Good luck!
ReplyDeletehe's so gonna miss the hell out of you
ReplyDeleteI mostly lurk and I didn't read your blog for several months and tonight I've been catching up, riveted... and after reading about the sea change you feel coming, I read about the divorce and your dad...and perhaps because I'm a stranger, it all makes perfect sense to me with perfect timing... follow your instincts into that tide of change. It could be that SF was simply your cocoon.
ReplyDeleteFor me, having a long distance relationship is hard. Well if you really love each other you can surpass all the trials and unexpected issues to your relationship and if your that strong enough not to be tempted to someone else well for sure it will work. Frankly speaking I don't like long distance relationship not because I don't have trust with my loved one but the thing is that its not easy to wait and to expect for someone to come back. I know I'm so pessimistic but we can't deny the fact that most long distance relationship didn't last that long because of some unexpected events.
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